Isn’t it frustrating when you feel like everyone has it figured out and you don’t? Don’t get me wrong! I’m convinced that I should pursue English at University! I’m extremely grateful that this has been revealed to me now so that I could do my research and ease my mind a bit. Then I realised I still needed to find 3 more courses to apply to in University…and for real’s, I’m stuck.
Everyone I know seems to have the one thing they want to do. Easy, no sweat! But I’m all over the place! I’m applying for English, then nursing and then possibly a few therapy courses. Something’s got to go, right?
Then I thought, "Wait…Hold up. Who am I to say this isn’t how it should be?” I mean, realistically, God rarely makes anything straightforward. That way, prayer is a MUST in everything we do. So, I’m coming around to the idea of this. Perhaps God is opening my eyes to all the possibilities in my life. At the end of the day, I’ll get accepted to whichever course he intends and I’m assured of the fact that said course will be one in which I feel drawn too.
I discovered this verse in my quiet time – “There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off.” – Proverbs 23:18
So, there I go! It doesn’t matter how scattered everything seems now! Just because God revealed a tiny part of his possible plan, it doesn’t mean he’s obliged to show me everything! I got a taste of hearing God speak indefinitely and then felt confused when the advice wasn’t flowing in. But he has been advising me. He’s been advising me to just chill! I’m happy that what I’m doing now isn’t abnormal or going to set me back. I’m simply going to have to spend a lot of time consulting God, and quite frankly, it’s only going to better me in my faith! A little bit of panicking here and there, which can’t be helped when it’s a pretty life altering decision, is more than worth it, if ultimately I learn to depend on God entirely.